Musings

So I've been spending time trying to get things together. I am studying so I can pass comprehensive exams in May, and also for fellowships so I can get a running start on my dissertation and so I can stay in Cincinnati for at least another year. Just lots to do, and needing to make myself do it.

One of my good friends from Detroit thinks that the main reason I want to stay in Cincinnati is because of Nikolai, who also plans on staying another year. At the same time, my family thought I wanted to leave Cincinnati because of Alex. Apparently, I am only capable of making decisions based on hormones :-P. I cannot make decisions as a forward-thinking, rational human being. Basically, I can't win for losing...

In other news, Alex apparently cannot quite let go, as I noticed he's still checking out my weblog (not this one). I mean, it's not like I can do anything about that, since it's public. It's not even a big deal. It is what it is. I just find it strange that someone who didn't give two craps about me would care to know what is going on in my life. Maybe if he sees that I have no use for him, he'll get the point.

The weirdest thing is, I kind of miss Nikolai. Not in a "oh so in love" kind of way. Anyway, looking forward to the first full week of February...